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   ♥ Sh3 iis★Nyniie
A virgo baby with a family and friends.II welcome any haters to invade my already messed up lyfe till you're satisfy:)
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Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 7:14 PM arini...boring and fun..ntah lah maner satu...i juz don understand myself..kdg2 fikir yg im really not needed among them. Yalah im a gerl tat are not owaez seriuz..i like to play around... i like to play joke..maybe i have play fun wif someone feeling...hmm..but do i need to be treated dis way...bkannya i plan tat thing to happen..itz juz happen and i dont mean it..slalu cam nie..aku bkan tk nk wat cam tu but sometimes they juz have to understand my feeling..i am cheerful all dis while coz trying to hide the pain inside...who wud understand except myself..must all dis happen coz of mie..must all the blame put on mie...hey!! im not wat u think i am...i oso have heart..i have feeling..i can cry..i can be upset...why cant u all juz understand!! itz hurting mie alot wen i realised i have noo value...am i tat invisible..do i need more effort to my attitude..remember..im juz a gerl..sometimes i can sometimes i cant be wat u want mie to be...every ppl have diff personality...why blame my nature wen i cant reach ur standard... Maner...maner lagi aku nk lari dari lalui idop cam nie..aku pun nk idop aman sak... i dont need anything..i juz need two feelings tat can make mie feel valuable..juz care and concern ..but! no why shud i get tat wen i owaez break someone heart...wen i play around wif their feeling!! I dont mean it..u think im tat evil to do tat!! i have suffer more den tat..more den anyone cud feel...but i try to pretend tat nothing happen...must it all be mie...even i had kept silence wen they kept hurting mie..wen i try to get things rite but oweaz someone else get the credit..why!! ive owaez try to pick the good...but in the end..i lost it..lost it to someone tat are better den mie...am i to blame..they dont even noe im trying...all they noe is juz to say wat lies infront of dem ..but they wont check whose really upset bout it... haiz...i juz dont get it..itz life tat had play a joke on mie...watever..sometimes i felt tat im not part of the werld...i kept wanting to be good..but they thot im the bad one...i juz have to be strong...i juz need to pretend..smile!..smile means tat everything is orite even tho u noe deep inside its wores den hell....... |