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   ♥ Sh3 iis★Nyniie
A virgo baby with a family and friends.II welcome any haters to invade my already messed up lyfe till you're satisfy:)
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Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 9:41 PM  Something's missing & i'm not sure exactly what it is. Goshh, why did i end up being this pathetic. For those that can't wait to see me fall well here is your good news then. But i try not to give a shit & wasting my time thinking about it. for now ,i should be happy that get to maintain what i have now but can't help e s2upid feeling i have. Apart from that,I just have a feeling and uneasyness that something bad or worse is going to happen ahead me. Everyday its bugging. Even when i'm sleeping, i would wake up in e middle of e night shivering to myself. Its not about me or a guy or whatever bullshit. It scares me to even think of it. I thought things would go as per normal, i swear i sincerely hope to have it all going well. but these few days, slowly things starts to turn to a different direction. Suspicious talk make me even more worry. Let us have a normal life please. Im really begging you.Whoever it may be lyke stop it if you are actually doing it. Stop all of these. Im really scared. scared to think of any possible things to happen. Hate all you one but spare our life. Was wishing and hoping for a happy life a crime that make all of you against us? Was standing up for e truth's that bad that make you all hate us? You have never been thru it so you dont know how scared and hopeless one feels when worse things happen infront of you & you cant do anything to it. Having a nightmare about it is really not something good. Breaking into cold sweat and start shivering to myself bring myself cloder to my sister who is sleeping beside me because the nightmare had happen b4 in real life and to have the same dream make it so real that my heart beats faster. On e 9 october, when my sis overnight outside to celebrate her badae and my father had to stay somewhere else, & i have to sleep alone. My imagination runs wild. Im usualy a timid person. & thins thought make me even more scare. I couldnt sleep e whole night. It makes me tear up soo much. When my mom in e morning come to my room to check on me, then i get to sleep. after evrythings is fyne then i can at last sleep. Damn! its really very hard. All i ever want was a simple life with my family. To make them smile for evry tears that fall. To make them rest for evry sweat that they work hard with. To carry them up for every tyme they fall. I know thats the hardest thing to do & with others intefering with our happiness its even harder. The harder it gets the fear keeps on increasing. You make it harder with ur bullshit, whoever that person is. I wont hope for your fall but i wish the day will come when you will come here and beg for forgiveness.
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